Forgot again to blog, I was playing Okami in honor of a loved one's pet that has recently passed away. I'm thinking about a lot of things every day now, and a lot of things have to get done in the 19 days we have left of school. My head hurts a bit just thinking about it, but I know in the end it will be alright. I wish I could sleep more, because my eyes are still hurting a bit, and I haven't had time or energy to keep preparing the ginkgo tea. I've been eating dried bilberries in its stead with my cereal, but they seem to be having little effect. I could guess it's because they are dried, but I don't think supplements will help as much as the real thing, and fresh bilberries seem to only be in England. I wonder why they can't be frozen and shipped here.
Recently, I also bought some hemp moisturizer that I had found in a local beauty shop when my aunt came to visit, and I used it on my back one hot day when my seborrhea (oily, itchy flakes on skin that are incurable) was flaring up again. It seems to have completely cleared up my seborrhea and I have not had a flare up since. My back feels extremely smooth, almost as if I no longer have seborrhea on my back. I am hoping that is the case, because if it is, I can start mixing it with my shampoo and using it for my scalp which has the worst case of my seborrhea. I am very hopeful and uplifted by this, and I'm glad that companies are becoming more open to an amazing plant that has unfairly received so much bad reputation. There really is new hope.

So all of a sudden the tech department is having me turn in the hard drive tomorrow, whether or not I've been able to get anything off of it... and now I'm rushing to get it fixed. The person helping me had something that came up, so I'm using this time to blog. I'm really praying that my drive can make it through and I can recover the files, but doing this all in a short time is hard and risky to boot. The plan is to get the drive cloned but I need another hard drive to clone it on, so I'm depending on another external that I have in order to try to write the image on it. However, it doesn't always connect, so everything's very iffy. Tomorrow I can also try cloning the drive during school, and hopefully I can stay after school for a while and try to clone it one more time there. I'm praying that things work out for the best.

I missed Wednesday again, but oh well. XD I've had so much going on, that I can probably only blog when I get the chance now. Nothing much has been going on, other than me thinking about the future a bit more and making sure to write some things down so I can be on track for the two months I'll be off of school before college.
Mimi and I watched some Animal Planet today and saw the Grizzly Man Diaries. I think it's really sad that the man who filmed them had to depart the way that he did, but at least he was doing something that he loved. There were a lot of signs that were ominous apparently, like how he set up tent too close to a trail, how he had a disagreement with the airline about his ticket out, and how he had to stay longer than usual in a time where the bears were more aggressive as they were trying to eat as much as possible for hibernation. The bears he filmed with weren't around either, as they already left for hibernation and new, unfamiliar bears were coming in to find more food. He was there with his girlfriend, and she also did not make it. It made me think about Steve Irwin, how weather stopped his filming and he went to casually film a stingray for his other show, and about how amazing yet unpredictable nature really is. I think it's true that there are many signs when something bad will happen, even if it's just a feeling. But it's also true that our bodies won't live forever, too. It's the mystery of life.

Today Japan had a massive 8.9 magnitude earthquake. It was devastating, and destroyed many buildings and killed many people. The death toll is in the hundreds right now and expected to go into the thousands. However, in all of this tragedy, I have faith in them. They prepare themselves exceptionally well for earthquakes, and an 8.9 is a sure test of their technology. Many of their buildings, even under the stress of a massive one like that, only swayed in the face of it. They know they live in an area especially susceptible to earthquakes and they've done the best they can. A good side to this is the fact that this will be the best recorded earthquake ever, and they can learn from the nature of this one what to suspect from upcoming ones. I'm pretty certain that Japan will eventually become earthquake proof entirely. The fact that this one was so big is speeding them up. Through all of this, my hopes and prayers are with them that those affected are comforted, consoled, and kept in good hands.
As for me, things have been going normal as usual other than this news. My eyes have started to feel funny again, but it's not as bad as it used to be. I also went to a new dermatologist today and got in and out in the quickest time ever- it was literally minutes. In comparison, every other place I've been to had me to wait at least half an hour, and sometimes even hours. I could tell the doctor was very smart, and he finally diagnosed me with what I had self diagnosed myself with before- seborrheic dermatitis (or for short, seborrhea). It's basically oily dandruff that has a strong smell and has to be controlled with medicated shampoo and/or natural treatments. As of now, there is no cure. Thankfully, it's not that bad of a condition, and only means I have to make sure I keep treating it to manage it. Even if I didn't, there are no adverse effects on my part besides the itching, though people around me wouldn't exactly be pleased if I let it go. XD And I did miss blogging Wednesday, but I didn't have much to blog about and I was also busy working to clean my room and organize all of my things that I'm keeping, and sectioning off what I'm not keeping long term.
My thoughts, however, continue to linger on Japan.

Wednesday, Mar. 2

Well, it's Wednesday again, and there's not much going on besides the normal. We got to get out of school early today because of a picture day, and it was great because the event was only for people who had clubs at our school and anyone who wasn't in any clubs could leave early. Everyone who had clubs had to stay and get a picture taken, and it was mandatory. I stayed in the tech room and watched some videos on Youtube until I could get picked up.
The year is soon coming to a close, and we only have 33 days left until we're out for good. It's pretty freeing, because we can finally have more freedom and more choices in what we are doing. Despite this, I still have final exams to look at, and I need to recover my data from my hard drive first... so there are many things I need to get through before the end of the year. Even though I tried, my eyes have been bothering me a lot lately and I was unable to get an A in my second semester to be exempt from some exams, but oh well. It's life.
Mostly, I can't wait for the day that I get to truly travel and see the sights like I've always longed for.